It all began with a vision that our group of renegade jugglers shared when we purchased 11 acres of raw jungle adjacent to Seaview Estates in March 1987. While my partners focused on developing their careers I managed all the legal, financial and physical realities of our collective. I created two non-profit organisations and learned that the benefits of being tax exempt came with a moral duty to serve our local community. My solution to fulfilling this obligation was the creation of S.P.A.C.E. and organising twenty-five years of HICCUP circus programs. It was definitely the road less travelled and came at a price.
As the main, and for many years the only, long term resident member at Bellyacres I knew building a facility would involve a huge commitment of my time and energy. It was a daunting undertaking but a few factors tipped me towards making a go for it. Much to my surprise, my naïve and inexperienced application for a special permit to build S.P.A.C.E. was accepted by the Hawai’i County Planning Department in 2001. Secondly a core group of key Bellyacres members and local friends, stepped up strongly to provide encouragement and support in the design and fundraising phases of S.P.A.C.E.. Also, my networking efforts with members of government organizations like the Hawai’i County Council, the Hawai’i State Senate and House of Representatives, the State Department for Business and Economic Development, and with Chris Yuen, the newly appointed planning department director, suggested that the timing was right for our project.
I was aware that moving forward with S.P.A.C.E. was a huge step, and I was apprehensive, but my sense of adventure and the backing of countless other people led me to continue. This was a real community effort and, throughout the whole project, I regular talked story with a host of committed people who consequently gave input on all the major decisions made.
My close friend, Lorn Douglas, was the first major supporter and donated $20,000 in start up funding which covered the costs of fundraising, permitting, and some planning. Our principal short-term goal was to seek $800,000 in grants and/or loans to build a 9,700-square foot performance arts educational center on 2.5 acres at Bellyacres. We had already explained to County Planning that the site was part of an 11-acre parcel which included a number of houses, campsites, and other structures that would all support S.P.A.C.E. programs by providing essential staff accommodation and logistical facilities.
Progress in creating S.P.A.C.E. was excruciatingly slow and over the years I discovered that tenacity, determination, persistence, and very thick skin are all essential attributes. I also learned that sometimes it’s necessary to give up on the dream and to let it go. I let go of the S.P.A.C.E. vision three times but it refused to die.
In 1999, while working on sabbatical for Belfast Community Circus for three months, I discovered first hand the woes of building and moving into a new circus facility. I concluded then that the HICCUP program would be better off with a traveling homeless circus. But when I came home and saw my HICCUP kids burning their feet on hot mats in the midday sun, juggling fire in the wind on tall unicycles, and climbing on the backs of soaking acrobats in the pouring rain, I decided that Puna kids (and adults) deserved their own covered facility. I also observed in ‘post-Troubles’ Belfast how circus could be used to provide a much-needed facility to grow the social capital of an underserved neighbourhood by bring people together and a seed was planted.
In 2000, once again, I felt the burden was proving too heavy for my shoulders and let go of the dream and even moved away from Bellyacres for a couple of months. Eventually my passion and commitment to be part of providing solutions in this world compelled me to continue my efforts to nurture the health of our children and community and I put all my energy behind making S.P.A.C.E. a reality.
For the next six years, I dedicated way too much of my time and energy into jumping through hoops and avoiding flying fire balls. I attended every community business workshop offered in Hilo, Kona, Honolulu, and Maui. I was honoured to be invited by the Hawaii Community Foundation to join their year long PONO leadership training program and, once I graduated as a Fellow, more doors of opportunity opened. On a daily basis, I researched capital campaign funding sources and looked for opportunities to schmooze with funders and philanthropists. I was constantly working on every grant opportunity I could and mailed out dozens of big fat packages of important paperwork, with hopes that they would one day bring in the funding we needed. I was eating, sleeping, and dreaming about S.P.A.C.E..
For month after month, nothing came back—only refusals and disappointment. Finally, disillusionment and despair set in. Even though, as a juggler, I was used to attempting the seemingly impossible, I felt it had consumed me and I had to give up. All we had in our capital fund account was about $28,000 that we’d raised from our own impoverished community over many years with mostly $5-$20 donations from supporters, benefit events, and performance fundraisers. I hit the wall for the third time and decided to downsize the dream and just build another larger Puna-style cheap shack in the bush. I totally let go of the S.P.A.C.E. plan.
Then miraculously on January 2nd, 2006, just two hours after sharing my defeatist decision with two HICCUP staff, I got a phone call from Bennet Dorrance informing me that his family foundation had decided to give us $250,000 for the S.P.A.C.E. project. By a stoke of good fortune Bennet and his wife Delphina had attended our wonderful ‘Malama Ka Aina’ performance and seen what the Puna community was capable of doing. The dream was back on and it was time to juggle bigger fires!
Over the next eighteen months we leveraged this challenge grant and raised our capital campaign balance to about $340,000 but it was still far short of the $780,000 needed to build our proposed S.P.A.C.E. facility so I consulted with my team and made an executive decision to do the best I could with what we had. After seven years of serious design work, permitting, fundraising, and grant writing efforts, I accepted that we may not ever raise the amount needed to fully construct all of our planned buildings, but by using some creative thinking the funds we had accumulated could fulfil much of the dream.
With less than the half the funding needed to complete the whole project, we had meetings with our architect and engineer and revised our plans. We eliminated half of the grandiose building we had originally designed which left us with a stand-alone training facility which we supplemented with a multi-purpose greenhouse structure, We were still delighted and very excited. It then took us a full year to secure the County permits required for our two structures which then only took a fraction of that time to build.
After twenty years of planning, designing, and fundraising S.P.A.C.E. construction finally began in March 2007. We started with the greenhouse, hiring a single professional to guide our own work crew in the pouring of the concrete footings and erection of the frame. We then installed the walls and plywood floor ourselves with recycled materials from our previous big top tent floor. Our crew consisted of myself, a local friend, and 10-12 work exchange young people with absolutely no construction experience…and it worked! The interior rooms and shelving were magically manifested in a couple of days using all recycled framing and doors and the 2,500-square foot ‘Green Room’ was completed in June of 2007. It has since provided workshop space, storage for props, costumes, and equipment, and also served as a school classroom. When this phase One of S.P.A.C.E. was complete we celebrated with a big community party, featuring the dancing rhythms of our resident marimba band.
Phase Two of our S.P.A.C.E. construction was the grand pavilion—our state-of-the-art Polynesian-style 3,500-square foot multi-purpose center with bathrooms, storage, and offices. Joe Hoffman and Kevin Sulgit, both from Seaview Estates, spent the best part of the year preparing all the structural materials with the help of Bellyacres interns. I had drawn up a list of all the local skilled trades people I knew and called upon them to give support if they could. As our former Hawai’i County Mayor Billy Kenoi famously said, “If can, can” and our community decided, “we can.”
Virtually all of the work—from the septic system, to the concrete slab, to the building and interior decorating—was done by locals. Bob Supan, a Seaview Estates resident organised the volunteer concrete crew. Adrian walked in one day and offered to do all the drywall work. Billy—the crew boss for the eight person construction crew—was the only one who couldn’t see his own house from the S.P.A.C.E. roof top. Our Bellyacres work exchange team also volunteered hundreds of hours to support the project. Everyone gave much more than we contracted them for—continuously going above and beyond—helping to realize the dream of a community facility.
The actual construction demonstrated a beautiful labor of love and expression of community togetherness. For everyone who participated in its creation S.P.A.C.E. will always be much more than the sum of the materials that were used to build it. S.P.A.C.E. took exactly four months to build including the extensive concrete slab work. The basic frame was formed with forty majestic ohia tree posts and lots of ohia bracing. There was about 2,000 board feet of ohia trim work, plus bathroom counters made from beautiful mango wood—all harvested from Bellyacres own forest. The design incorporated natural lighting in all rooms and natural flow ventilation. We installed a 5.6 Kw solar system in 2007—just before solar panels became cheap and popular—and we relied 100% upon catchment water.
Almost all of the commercial spruce/pine lumber was utility grade, sanded, and refurbished by our crew members and everything was pre-painted several times before being put into place. Construction was completed in four months and I was extremely proud of all that we managed to pull off and I attempted to honour each of the many people who made it all possible during my speech at our grand opening ceremony on November 2, 2007. It was a really long speech! Crowning this glory was the fact that we had successfully achieved it all in full compliance with county codes and S.P.A.C.E. was fully permitted for use just days before we started our HICCUP programs. We were legal and complaint for once…but not for long!
Early in the planning stages I knew we needed a business plan and it was obvious that providing circus classes and community rentals in low income Puna would never produce sufficient income to support the facility. Following furtive discussions amongst Bellyacres members, we rekindled an old dream to entice amateur and professional circus performers from outside Hawai’i to come to S.P.A.C.E. for professional workshops, stay at Bellyacres, and pay us lots of money. This plan was easy to sell to our membership because, in their minds, it elevated our status in the performance arts world and offered them the chance to be employed as professional workshop leaders and instructors.
The anchor for our proposed financial plan was the marketing of a first-rate, residential, professional training program which we hoped would provide revenue to support our HICCUP programs for children throughout Hawai’i County and State. HICCUP was now performing about 160 shows annually and had become a feature at most Big Island festivals and parades plus community events and benefits across the Hawai’ian Islands. We had weekly classes in schools and community centers, and organized summer and winter camps. Our ‘Juggling For Success’ program had served over 8,400 students in seven Big Island and Kauai Schools. Our ‘edutainment’ shows focused on drug prevention, recycling, protecting our oceans, and our land. While many thousands of people watched our performances many more learned about HICCUP through features on Hawai’i TV, in magazines, and in local newspapers. However, despite being one of the foremost youth circus programs in the country, HICCUP could never become a viable business financially while it focused on serving children from low income rural Puna and needed help.
S.P.A.C.E. began operations just as the 2008 economic depression hit the world economies and we immediately discovered that our potential workshop candidates were on reduced budgets and preferred to avoid the expensive flights to Hawai’i. Our location became a serious disadvantage for the overall circus performing arts industry and we also faced competition from new circus training opportunities that were offered in Honolulu, which is considerably easier and cheaper to fly to than the Big Island. Unfortunately, S.P.A.C.E. was never able to obtain any share of the professional residential workshop market and had to consider alternatives to it’s original business plan. This change of direction became the source of our later problems with a few local residents and the Planning Department.
Upon completion of the S.P.A.C.E. pavilion, I was emotionally and physically burned out and felt it was time to take a break. Following my recent separation from my wife, I decided to give my three-year-old daughter my full focus and provide her all the time, love, and parenting that I could. I resigned from my executive director role found an excellent replacement in Jenna Way, and then recruited a team to take over running the HICCUP circus. My plan was to be free from day to day management and to let others take the wheel. I should have known that God laughs at renegades like me who believe that we can plan our lives. Life just doesn’t work out like that!